Happy with tears

Tidak pernah punya cita-cita yang muluk2 dalam hidup gw pada awalnya... Gw cm pengen menikah d umur 25 trus ktemu ma cowo yg bakalan gw nikahin di Gereja. Simple rite??

Yes!! My pray has been answered by Jesus. Gw ktemu ma cowo gw d Gereja n cm butuh kurleb 6 bulan gw nikahin dia di Gereja yg sama pertama kali qta ktemu, walopun gw nikah nya d usia 26 hehehe melenceng setaon cuyy....

Gw merit, klo kata org tgl nya bagus n hoki bgt, 772007. Happy enjoy excited all come together on that day....

We are happy couple, many people said that we are the best couple beauty and handsome.....

Sadly but true it only took 40 days to be the 'best' couple.....

bang!! boom!! he got arrested for drug user and dealer.....

at the first 2 day in custody I don't want to see him.... lots n lots people, even the preacher, said I have to end our marriage.

but gw ga bs lakuin itu smua krn gw ngrasa bhw that's not what God has taught me about marriage.....

susah senang, untung malang harus di pikul.....

so I decided to stay and get through wth it... 10 months in prison n on mid feb he got released n we try again from the start.

we stay in his house wth the parent uugghhh its not heaven at all its completely HELL!!!!

father's in law die wth lot of sorrow behind it (ckp panjang klo di ceritain) n 1 month past I got pregnant after 3 years of our marriage.

2010 1st son born, Jacob Jarden DR on Feb 16 so happy can't describe the level.
Continue wth HELL again in the house, 3/4 times I left the house coz it burns me in n outside..... but in the end I keep coming back huuhhhhh.....

next year it turns my dad passed away  just about Jacob reach 1,5yo... it happen on easter day (that's why ga tlalu ska dgn Easter day)

3mo after I got pregnant for the 2nd time.
2012 2nd son born, Jorell Noah DR on Aug 16 so happy can't describe it the happiness in me. This time I decided to stay at my parents house (don't want HELL in me again) even though he disapprove I don't care!!!

before Jorell turns 2yo mom in law caught in financial problems with lot of people in the world....... (Its true) so the family decided to sell they house to pay all the debts she caused (still not enough since she took half of the money from selling the house without paying the debt at all!!!!)

we moved to my parents house along wth their stuff fiuuuhhhhh.....

next year, again, I've got pregnant for 3rd time.

2015 3rd, again, son born. Jarvis Ezekiel DR Jan 21st and we agreed its enough to have kids, so we decided I go for sterilization surgery. Its beyond all the happiness in the world......

but still my path still empty n it looks like I'm walking in darkness......

I should have listened at the first place to my parents family relative NEVER EVER dealt wth him n his family!!!!! Sucks!!!!

I should leave him soon when he got caught.....

From the beginning I'm the one who FEED this family and HIS family!!! aarrgggghhhhh...... So fucking stupid!!!

My family end up wth nothing!!!!

Now its fucking way way way to late.......